Sick oh and Tired

So I have one month and a couple of weeks left of my paid subscription to my current dating site and I am already done. Oh, not because I've found someone but because all of my dates have left me drained. I even canceled a date this weekend. Not because I didn't care but because I was actually sick but I'd like to think of it as a sign. He seems like a nice guy but I'm just not excited because the last several dates have been such a bust.

After months of not having any success I just can't get the energy up to go out on another date. I don't even want to respond to another email from a guy. I am very much a girly girl and I got ready for my last date in twenty minutes. That's how little I cared.

I figure when I just don't have the interest anymore then I'm not going to be much of a date for others to enjoy. When it stops being fun, boys and girls, the show is over. However, I did pay for that site and I am going to make an effort, albeit painful, to get use out of it. What that will mean is that I'll simply be a little picker with who I see. If "the spirit" is telling me no then going out won't be a good experience. So no more going out with guys I'm not even remotely excited to meet. Also, I will not go out with anymore pretty boys just because...

Oh, and I'm putting my extra energy into other things like volunteering, rock climbing, working on my writing. Ultimately, I need a mood enhancer and I'm not finding it in other people so maybe, just maybe, if I have a good thing going in other parts of my life, these bummer dates won't be so draining.

Anywho, April 5, 2010 is when my subscription ends so we'll see how it goes, maybe I'll have a change of heart...